Re: GSoC final update

[Leo Famulari]

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Hey Caleb,

On Tue, Aug 29, 2017 at 02:44:56AM -0500, Caleb Ristvedt wrote:
> <Digression> I found myself checking the guile reference quite
> frequently. One time I happened upon a part describing the ECMAScript
> implementation (curiosity and all that), and noticed that several times
> it was mentioned how irresponsible the implementor was. That scared me
> probably more than it should have. By all objective criteria, I have
> failed in this project, and it frightens me to think that, nice as the
> community is, I could screw up badly enough to end up a footnote
> somewhere as an example of what not to be. That fear pretty much sums up
> my mental state during the second half of the summer.</Digression>
> 
> In short, I've failed to achieve the goals I set out in my
> proposal. Worst of all is that I failed to regularly communicate. I
> specifically said that I would regularly communicate, and then I failed
> to do so, especially during the second half of the summer. It seems that
> the less I communicated, the more afraid of communicating I
> became.

I've had similar feelings at different parts of my life. Sometimes it's
been related to work, sometimes to relationships.

I want to say that I can relate to what you experienced, and I hope you
can let go of those negative feelings.

For me, I've since realized that I was *way* too hard on myself each
time it happened.

From time to time, we all have the experience of not reaching some goal
that we have set for ourselves. This seems not to affect some people at
all; I tend to feel very bad about it.

But, as I've grown older I've learned to see it happening and tell
myself to let it go. Nobody else wants me to feel bad, and they won't be
upset that I didn't meet my goal. The harsh taskmaster is in my head, so
it's completely safe for me to tell him to get lost ;)

I hope you won't feel bad if you don't pick this work back up right
away, or ever.

Peace,
Leo

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