And he felt himself relieved of part of his load of
misery. It is true only in appearance, replied Julien.
I have, therefore, deserved death, Gentlemen of the
Jury.
He imaginedhimself to be in the headsmans
hands.
After such an action, how am I to convince her that
I love herand her only?
It was a solemn moment; the lampsburned more
dimly.
He iscapable of thrashing the other jurors if they
refuse to vote as hewishes.
They are very great people in France, theycombine
all the social advantages.
I want to be alone, he said to this faithful
friend.
I feel for you what I ought to feel only for God:
ablend of respect, love, obedience .
What folly to discuss these
greatproblems!
This made him all the happier on the return of
Madame de Renal. He felt a compelling need of solitude, and how was he to secure it?
Mademoiselle de La Mole, having failed to get anything out of Julien,made the lawyer
come in.
Julien looked at his watch, and rememberedM. A
hunter fires his gun in a forest, his quarry falls, he runs forwardto seize it. He
imaginedhimself to be in the headsmans hands.
All my foolish actions would have been forgiven me,
or rather countedto me as merits.
They are very great people in France, theycombine
all the social advantages.
Faith, I am dying of hunger, said his counsel, and
you? I am too closely guarded for Mathilde to be able to effect myescape, like
Madame de Lavalette .
These words only: I feel that I am justly
condemned.